Do you know what it's like to feel claustrophobic? Not just the quick flutter of the heart when it feels like things are getting cramped - I mean that horrid feeling of desperation, entrapment, and fear. Though I've mostly grown out of the sensation, when I was a child my brother used to throw a heavy blanket over the top of me while playing games. As soon as my vision was encompassed by blackness, my breathing stalled and my heart raced. Panic swept over me as I felt control loosen from my grip. Unable to see, I felt as though I were lost in an endless forest, drowning in a sea of darkness, lying in a tunnel with no light at the end. For me, it wasn't just the feeling of entrapment and close quarters - it was the visual impairment that gave me goosebumps. I'm not sure you've ever felt that way before, and if you haven't, I assure you, you're not missing out on anything. It's an awful feeling. It plays with the emotions - strangles the mind.
It's also got me thinking.
How often am I living a spiritually claustrophobic life?
How often am I blanketed by the world?
How often am I blinded by those things not of Christ?
Living in darkness is an awful and scary thing. But God calls us "out of darkness" and "into his wonderful light" (1 Peter 2:9). He removes the shadows, the sorrow, the blankets. He doesn't just bring us into light - He is the light. The apostle John tells us that "God is light; in him there is no darkness at all" (1 John 1:5). And there's more. We too are called to be lights. Like cities on a hill, we are to radiate the goodness and love of the Almighty God before all men (Matthew 5:14-16).
But we can't do that until we are walking in God's footsteps. We can't be like the blind leading the blind. God calls us to more than that. Christian apologist Cornelius Van Til often wrote that we ought to "think God's thoughts after Him". As Christians, we need to live this life through the eyes of Christ. The apostle Paul wrote about putting on "the new self" (Colossians 3:10) and becoming a "new creation" (2 Corinthians 5:17). What would it look like if I truly let Christ live through me in every capacity of thought and action? Would people notice a difference?
Ultimate submission calls for ultimate humility. Establishing Christ as Lord over our entire lives is part of that process. We must earnestly strive to not see the world around us through our eyes, but through Christ's. I'm beginning to understand the importance of David's psalm. I am hopeless without God. Like when I was paralyzed in fear with the blanket thrown over me as a child, I too am crippled apart from God's love and grace. Yet "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" (Philippians 4:13). Not only do I not want to see light apart from God, I can't. "In thy light, do I see light". Amen.
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